And then we have the bitter part of that hyphenated word. I'm not ready to say goodbye to this family. I'm not ready to say goodbye to the beauty of this show and the way we make people cry with just one note or a simple vowel. I can't even imagine performing Spring Awakening for the very last time. Sitting in that chair, standing up in Touch Me for the last time. Singing Purple Summer with this cast for the last time. We will never all be together again. We will never perform again as the first national touring company of Spring Awakening. So no, I am not ready for May 23rd to come. Bitter-sweet. I should let you all know that I'm listening to Bitch of Living over the monitor writing this. And now I'm crying. Oof. Although I haven't been part of this cast from the beginning, I've made some memories that will last me a lifetime, and I'd like to share some of them with you now. Specifically, my favorite memories from my year on tour - so far. I'm sure I'll make some more in these last few weeks. Here they are, in no particular order:
1) My first show. Wednesday June 3rd, 2009. Louisville, KY. 7:25 pm. I looked in the mirror at myself in this cute little blue dress and grey tights, and I started crying (when don't I cry??). I was officially a part of my dream show. At approximately 8:05 pm, I started shaking. And then I stood up for Touch Me. And I think I started crying again because I saw my mom crying in the third row. It was one of the best nights of my life.